I still remember tiny details of that day. I was the first to find out at the restaurant, you could tell the entire atmosphere had become darker, everyone knew you. Sithy took it the hardest, who could blame him though, he was your brother’s best friend. I remember the day of your funeral, that…
And nights like this make me realize, I really am alone.
I want to be taken on an adventure tonight and whisked away by my friends and ride around and do pointless shit but I realize I really don’t have any close friends here on campus. I mean given, I have 2 best friends that live down the hall but one is working and the other isn’t really talking to me right now. I’m part of a sorority and a sisterhood but in reality I’m not really close to any of those girls. I haven’t made a whole lot of friends while I’ve been here since I never have time to go out. To be frank, I really just don’t have any friends.
I’m lonely.
Miserable at best
Tonight is just one of those god awful nights where my mood just drops and all I want to do is wallow in my own self pity and be a little baby and cry. I sound like a child, desperate for attention. But I need to remind myself that I need to stay on track and focus on everything I need to get done. I can’t let the emotions get the best of me, not tonight.
A reminder that I need to stay on track
To do list:
Tonight:
Start on chem homework
Do laundry
Take Care of all SET Team “homework”
Tomorrow:
Learn all of Chem Chapter 10 and finish the rest of Chem homework (100+ problems)
Attend the Bio seminar tomorrow at noon
Attend Brooklyn and Sarah’s experiment at 3
SET Team meeting at 5
KD Informal Chapter at 8
Write Bio Lab Report and print
Write summary on a McKibben article
Tuesday
Cram for Bio Lab Practical
Plan the Girl Scouts Event on Thursday and try to get things together
Do Chem Homework
Write Bio Seminar Paper and submit it
Wednesday and Thursday
Drive to myrtle and attend dance practice, drive back to Charleston
Stress out about the girl scouts event and finish up final details
Friday, Saturday, Sunday
Compete at Hollywood Vibe
cry because I’m missing KD’s formal and the annual kayaking trip.
